julia, messy edition @julia@benzo.fans
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my world's on fire, how 'bout yours
private account, ask before following (if we don't interact at least sometimes don't even bother)
this is my dark/venting account (that i tell people about). i don't always bother with cw's here, be warned that the content will get dark quickly
side effects of reading my posts here may include depression and severe second hand anxiety
all characters and events described here are purely fictional and any correlations to real world events are purely coincidental unless otherwise noted. no living beings were harmed in the process.
common content: drugs, ed, sh, mh, loss, and me yelling about stuff that upsets me
i treat the icd10 as a todo-list, and you can't stop me
generally carrying a knife, and not afraid to use it
Joined Feb 2021
julia is known to the state of california to cause cancer
[ insert wall of text about inequality and climate doom here ]
the past hurts. a lot.
thread of triggering memes lmao
https://benzo.fans/@julia/106595877532157960
meme collection, abuse, potentially triggering imagery
me? complicated past? sexual abuse? nooooo couldn't be me
ugh i'm already a day past injection schedule but i'm too exhausted to do anything rn
do i force myself to function
partial lyricsposting
EDEN - Fumes
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If all we have is time, then we'll be alright
It's not much, but it's better than nothing
We're running on fumes, but we'll make it through the night
It's not love, but it's better than dreaming
random middle of the night phone call rant
i tried to call back twice, with no success, i am going the fuck back to sleep and if they fucking call me again in the middle of the night i will pick up and ask why the fuck they feel like they have to cause a fucking panic attack in the middle of the night and what the heck could be *this* important and like who the heck uses phone calls‽‽ i wanna cry
why the FUCK is an austrian phone number calling me at shit fuck damn o clock (~2am)
and why do they not pick up when i call back
w h y
my brain, or as i've recently taken to calling it, the bad idea machine
i think quite a few people might need to hear this too tbh
reminder to self
you're allowed to do things.
you do not need other people's approval for every tiny thing you do.
you do not need to ask permission.
you are allowed to like the things you like, even if others dislike them.
you do not need to like everything other people like.
you are allowed to have needs.
you are allowed to ask for help.
you are allowed to say no.
you have a right to exist, and take up space and resources you need.
you are allowed to not function from time to time.
funny how hetzner having issues causes my monitoring to go down but not my instance
still, i have a blank spot in my monitoring now >:c [angy julia noises]
- admin
- at benzo.fans
- ⚠️ read bio
- before asking to follow
my world's on fire, how 'bout yours
private account, ask before following (if we don't interact at least sometimes don't even bother)
this is my dark/venting account (that i tell people about). i don't always bother with cw's here, be warned that the content will get dark quickly
side effects of reading my posts here may include depression and severe second hand anxiety
all characters and events described here are purely fictional and any correlations to real world events are purely coincidental unless otherwise noted. no living beings were harmed in the process.
common content: drugs, ed, sh, mh, loss, and me yelling about stuff that upsets me
i treat the icd10 as a todo-list, and you can't stop me
generally carrying a knife, and not afraid to use it
Joined Feb 2021
