julia, messy edition @julia@benzo.fans

burn bright, and then burn out

thread of triggering memes lmao
https://benzo.fans/@julia/106595877532157960

me? complicated past? sexual abuse? nooooo couldn't be me

you're allowed to do things.
you do not need other people's approval for every tiny thing you do.
you do not need to ask permission.
you are allowed to like the things you like, even if others dislike them.
you do not need to like everything other people like.
you are allowed to have needs.
you are allowed to ask for help.
you are allowed to say no.
you have a right to exist, and take up space and resources you need.
you are allowed to not function from time to time.

©ptsd
copyrighted ptsd

self destructive coping mechanisms feel so good because they make me feel like i fit into this broken world

@shaman@cryptotalks.social lol fuck off

@spicypotat what exactly makes you think your follow request is even remotely welcome on this account?

yea

in particular we had broken dns resolving on the instance's side. so it wasn't able to communicate outwards, breaking remote media fetch for example. posts from the last day or so may still have missing media, i don't know if they get refetched.

who whee i really should monitor disk usage on my shit lmaoo
turns out when the firewall box runs out of disk space things Break

test test 123

tho it's still reasonably close and we can always get closer keep it up :D

we have already failed.

tfw u have a panic attack and ur heart does that funky 5/13 polyrhythm 🥺🎧🎶

There will be intermittent downtime for CatCatNya~.

world's fucked
that is all thank you for listening

7chariot - Pyrokinesis
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We could set the world on fire using only our minds
Pyrokinesis, we hurt each other without trying
When you say the things you say they start a little spark
Ignite this small but also highly flammable heart

I smell something burning
We're melting down tonight

You're setting me on fire, I don't wanna fight it
You don't need a lighter, you're a flame
Drowning myself in water only makes it hotter,
Hard for me to keep myself away
You're setting me on fire, I don't wanna fight it
You don't need a lighter to sustain
Drowning myself in water only makes it hotter,
Hard for me to keep myself away

Neither one of us could gain control over our powers
Over one another we could fight like this for hours
Words deep soaked in gasoline and it will never change
And even if you loved me now it'd just feel cold and strange
I can see the embers, they're glowing in your eyes

You're setting me on fire, I don't wanna fight it
You don't need a lighter, you're a flame
Drowning myself in water only makes it hotter,
Hard for me to keep myself away

You're setting me on fire, I don't wanna fight it
You don't need a lighter to sustain
Drowning myself in water only makes it hotter
Hard for me to keep myself away

P-P-P-P-Pyrokinesis, kinesis, kinesis
P-P-P-P-Pyrokinesis, kinesis, kinesis oh

Can't we just talk?
Lay it all out on the table
We're no good for each other
We're comically unstable
It's time to let it go, so no one else gets hurt
So no one else gets burned

You're setting me on fire, I don't wanna fight it
You don't need a lighter, you're a flame
Drowning myself in water only makes it hotter,
Hard for me to keep myself away

You're setting me on fire, I don't wanna fight it
You don't need a lighter to sustain
Drowning myself in water only makes it hotter,
Hard for me to keep myself away

P-P-P-P-Pyrokinesis, kinesis, kinesis
P-P-P-P-Pyrokinesis, kinesis, kinesis
P-P-P-P-Pyrokinesis, kinesis, kinesis
P-P-P-P-Pyrokinesis, kinesis, kinesis

Oh we could set the world on fire using only our minds

Seratones - Dark Matter
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[Verse 1]
Nosebleed
Woke up in a Black dream
Flying at warp speed in my mind
Oh my
Who's she, naked in the sweetgrass?
Got the dust in my sheets
Who am I?

[Chorus]
Who are we living for?
Who are we living for?
Calling me crazy
Shake me to the core
Who are we living for?
Who are we living for?
Tell me who holds the key
Nobody seems to know
Why we’re lost inside dark matter (Dark matter, dark matter)
Lost inside dark matter (Dark matter, dark matter)
[Verse 2]
No sleep
Can you see me floating over my body, looking out
Hold me
I wish someone would hold me
Tell me that it's alright
Lеt it out

[Chorus]
Who are we living for?
Who are wе living for?
Driving me crazy
Shake me to the core
Who are we living for?
Who are we living for?
Tell me who holds the key
Nobody seems to know
Why we're lost inside dark matter (Dark matter)
Lost inside dark matter
(Lost inside dark matter)

[Bridge]
Pink matter, grey matter, purple sky
Love matter you matter, you and I
Dark matter, green matter get me high
Daydream about the a future
Brighter than Black diamonds in the sky
[Chorus]
Who are we living for?
Who are we living for?
Tell me who holds the key
Nobody seems to know
Why we’re lost inside dark matter (Dark matter)
Lost inside dark matter
(Dark matter, dark matter, dark matter, dark matter)

oh yeah also mastodon has been updated in the process

alright i'm gonna call that a success